Peace in Pain


I don’t want to hear it

What started off as just simple (but server) depression and anxiety has escalated into riot in my brain!

I developed haters
Voices in my head
I wish they whispered sweet nothings
But oh no I've not had such luck
Instead they mock and torment me

You're worthless
You're nothing
You're fat
You're ugly
You're such burden
It's best to suffer in silence, if you talk about your depression people will think you are looking for attention or they will think you are weak and pathetic
Everybody hates you
Everybody you love is going to leave you
You don't deserve love
You don't deserve happiness
The world is better off without you
Just kill yourself
No one will notice when you're gone anyway
In fact everyone will be happy
Their lives will be better

I lost control of my emotions now I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind!

depression · Mental health

Would anybody even notice? 

Do you ever get that feeling that nobody loves you? 

That nobody cares about you?

That you’re just a waste of space? 

An unnecessary addition to the earths population? 

Have you ever asked yourself ” If I were to disappear today, would anybody notice?” 
Well that’s my everyday! 

I’m surrounded by people but I still feel alone. 

I’ve somehow managed to convince myself that nobody likes me, they just tolerate me! 
I feel like at some point of my life everyone I love and care for is going to leave me! 

I just know they will! 
They gonna realize that I’m nothing! 

That I’m pathetic 

That I’m a loser 

That I’m insecure 

That I’m worthless

That I’m broken 

So the question still stands

If I were to die today, would anybody notice?

depression · Mental health

It all gets better in the end 

Depression It’s a fickle thing.

It can be triggered by the tinny tiniest things or if you’re me by nothing at all.

My mood can go from joyful and happy to lonely and suicidal in a split second.
And when that moment comes you feel like the weight of the world lies on your shoulders.

You feel lonely, scared, broken and sad


You don’t feel anything at all

You have nothing left to feel

You’re just empty
Then they’ll say
“Please be okay”

“Just smile”

“It’s fine! You’re fine”

Or my two favorites

“It’s all in your head, if you wanna be happy just be happy”

Oh how I wish it was that easy!! It’s not like I enjoy feeling like the scum of the earth.


“It all gets better in the end. If it’s not better, it’s not the end.”

This is the only statement that holds the truth.

It does get better at the end

Cause the end is death.

That moment when you take your last breath and you feel a sense of relief or you feel at peace.

That’s the end!

That’s when it gets better.